Nanay's kamuning

And to my listening ears
All nature sings, and round me rings
The music of the spheres.
This is my Father's world:
I rest me in the thought
Of rocks and trees, of skies and seas--
His hand the wonders wrought."





Minutiae of my every day since 2004.

And to my listening ears
All nature sings, and round me rings
The music of the spheres.
This is my Father's world:
I rest me in the thought
Of rocks and trees, of skies and seas--
His hand the wonders wrought."





May is the month when I get reminded to renew my domain name registration. Web addresses are temporary. One rents them, until such time that the subscription expires and, if another party is interested, this web-based real estate can be owned by another entity.
For me, the ritual of renewal signals the passing of yet another year. The domain name, bottledbrain.com, has been registered under my name since 2010. Previously, this blog could only be accessed through the address, http://bottledbrain.blogspot.com. (If you type the address in the web browser, you will be redirected to the dot com page -- which is essentially the same website.) It was Manong Ralph's gift to me. I was unemployed, penniless, still in med school. I asked Ate Kate, sister of my friend Wegs, for ideas on how to set up the domain name, and she gave me a referral to a Cebu-based company called Dreamcode Domains, to which I'm still subscribed. A minor glitch happened in 2018: my domain name registration had expired, I couldn't contact Dreamcode Domains, and was forced to register a dot org address.
But those were glorious days of the internet. People wrote in their websites. They got to know each other and made connections through shared interests. They left comments and linked to other sites. The internet was a growing, vibrant community. Blogs, or personal websites, in other words, were an important component of that ecosystem. That community began to crumble when social media replaced these personal websites. Many blogs became silent, or were replaced by companies that profited off them. People posted and interacted in Facebook-gated communities. Blogs were essentially forgotten. I'm oversimplifying things, of course. We know the internet's history is more nuanced than what I had outlined, but I believe that's the gist of the story: the blogs were taken over by social media, people simply got disinterested in them.
But I kept on blogging because I like having a space in the web, a little corner I can temporarily own. Hardly anyone visits here now, I suppose. I stopped checking the web traffic years ago. I actually like the silence.
I still check blogs. I read them regularly. I enjoy them and learn so much from them. These blogs are quiet islands in an algorithmic sea of social media falsehoods, hate, and pride. They are quiet cafes playing jazz music and serving hot coffee personally prepared by the owner, not run-of-the-mill, machine-prepared, AI-generated Americano. I'm over-dramatizing, but I hope you get what I mean.
Here's to blogs! May they survive another year!

You have multiplied, O Lord my God,
your wondrous deeds and your thoughts toward us;
none can compare with you!
I will proclaim and tell of them,
yet they are more than can be told. (Psalm 40: 5)
As for you, O Lord, you will not restrain
your mercy from me;
your steadfast love and your faithfulness will
ever preserve me! (Psalm 40:11)
I meditate on the Psalms because they are real prayers of real people. They don't hide anything. They instead expose the realities of the human heart, including mine.
David wrote Psalm 40 where he "looks both backward and forward as he considers his need for God," according to Dane Ortlund. Birthdays, or any milestone in one's life that's worth remembering, offer someone a space for instrospection. What has one done with one's life? And what does the future hold?
My friend Hazel reminded me this year would be our last as thirty-something-year olds. I celebrated my birthday a few days ago. I chose a quiet celebration -- meaning, no grand celebration, save for a coffee chat with high school friends the day after.
David's Psalm resonate with me deeply. My life is peppered with the grace of God multiplied many times over. His mercies towards my sinfulness and shortcomings are not restrained; they overflow. What a real blessing to be alive in and for Him.
Day Two: food trip. A motorbiking-walking exploration of Ho Chi Minh City's gastronomical landscape.
My driver was a young man named Ryan. I suspect he has another name, but he introduced himself to me as Ryan because the Anglicized name rolled off easily on foreign tongue. He graduated from university this year, majored in journalism, did the tour as a part-time job, and spoke good English.
The shade trees made the trip bearable, as they offered relief from direct tropical sunlight. Greenery marked the streets of Saigon —from the major avenues and even the little side streets — and this reality made me mourn for my hometown's old, majestic acacia and narra trees felled to make room for road widening.































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